IN FRATERNAM MEAM: THE CROSS MY WHOLE FAMILY HAS TO BEAR

IN FRATERNAM MEAM

Saturday, December 04, 2004

THE CROSS MY WHOLE FAMILY HAS TO BEAR

I got a call from my sister from the Philippines,
it is about my younGest brother, who is very ill
and on his last stage of cancer.

I blog this entry with all the emotions and tears
in my eyes, asking questions that I cannot fathom
and search for an answer.

I wanted to shout, and I wanted to cling to something
and I wanted to blame god for giving so much pain to
my brother. If it is a test, why so much pain----
pain that is so much to carry and so is the pain in the
body of my young brother.

Why can't YOU not just let him rest---take him and let
him come home and rest--- so that his pain and sufferings
will have an end. I don't ask YOU for a miracle--- because
I know YOU have already decided. But at least PLEASE----
spare him the sufferings, the pain and the pains of all
our hearts.

Please spare the pains of our parents too. They are already
old and have the sufferings of their own---they have given
so much to YOU and they have not asked anything in turn.
I don't ask anything in turn--- just let my brother be at
PEACE , to calm down my aging parents.

My mother does not want to talk anymore. The recluse of
an 80 year old mother is not a site to see from all of us!
Is the tears of an 83 year old father, whom we have not seen
shed teas ever since we were young, not a sharp knife to bear
in our hearts.?

WHAT DO YOU WANT????
WHAT IS IT THAT YOU HAVE TO TELL US--- THAT THE SUFFERING
OF MY PARENTS AND BROTHER WILL BE THE VERY CORE OF OUR LIVES NOW???.

TAKE MY BROTHER HOME --- give him his share of PEACE, and let my
parents be at PEACE also.

My parents are lamenting this sad sad things for our brother.
They cannot accept the fact that they will be the ones burying
a son, instead the son burying his parents.

How many more sleepness night my kid brother has to take---
and endure, he cannot eat--- he cannot talk---
he cannot breathe properly.
The PAIN he said is unbearable, he is asking to be TAKEN.
WHY ARE YOU NOT LISTENING TO HIS PLEADINGS?.......
ARE YOU HAPPY WITH ALL OUR SUFFERINGS?......
WHAT IS THERE TO APPEASE THE GRIEVING HEARTS OF MY PARENTS?....
HOW MANY MORE CROSS AND HOW HEAVY ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO GIVE US?....

TAKE MY BROTHER.............................
TAKE HIM NOW.......................
GET IT OVER WITH..................
LET US HAVE OUR GRIEF TO OURSELVES...............
LET US HAVE PEACE ...............
AND LET US CRY IN PEACE ................
LET US CRY IN PEACE................
LET US CRY IN PEACE...............
LET US CRY IN PEACE...................
LET US CRY IN PEACE..................

TAKE HIM NOW!!!!!!!

posted by infraternam meam @ 3:18 AM

2 Comments:

At 7:55 PM, balikbayan_box said…

hello po. i just read your post sa comment box ni ate beth ( kiwipinay ) and click on your link.

i dont have meaningful quotes to give you right now but ill include your brother, your parents as well as you and your family in my daily prayers.

hope all is well with you.
At 5:35 AM, infraternam meam said…

thank you for your concerns. i have already come to a point that all of these things has to be left into somebody's will. thank you for your concern. i have to pick up my life togehter...lie has to go on.